Tuesday, October 14, 2008

The state of Man

Al-Baqara (The Cow)

2:36 But Satan caused them both to stumble therein, and thus brought about the loss of their erstwhile state. [29] And so We said: "Down with you, [and be henceforth] enemies unto one another; and on earth you shall have your abode and your livelihood for a while !" [30]

فَأَزَلَّهُمَا الشَّيْطَانُ عَنْهَا فَأَخْرَجَهُمَا مِمَّا كَانَا فِيهِ وَقُلْنَا اهْبِطُواْ بَعْضُكُمْ لِبَعْضٍ عَدُوٌّ وَلَكُمْ فِي الأَرْضِ مُسْتَقَرٌّ وَمَتَاعٌ إِلَى حِينٍ (2:36)

What have we come to? As my circle of acquaintances expands amongst men I run into more and more men jaded from relationships. It seems a trend of all that I see. Men are the enemy, Women are the enemy. No one wants to bend, no one wants to sacrifice. Everyone wants to take advantage of the other in an endless reptilian dance towards complete destruction.

How could the atrocities of Africa, Slovakia and Asia exist. How could men treat women so harshly. How could we have become such enemies to each other. I'm not the only one who cries down with marriage, men all over are being jaded against the concept. The institution of predatory dating and predatory relationships is definitely on the rise. It seems like it is all around me. Women taking advantage of men and women would see the same, only fueling this anger and resentment. No wonder so many are choosing to stay alone.

I used to think ill of the Peep Show business (and still do, eww), but in the current times it is logical to see why many would make that choice. Relationships fail and then they cost. Your feelings and emotions are hurt and everything that you've built is thrown into utter ruin. It would be more feasible and economical to just pay for what you want and then go on about your business. Free of any attachments, free of any emotional entanglements, free of lost time with children a complete embodiment of self in a self imposed self protected bubble. Free of child-support and alimony and further involvement down the line. Those people who indulge in that are sick, but they don't have any delusions of living happily ever after. At least most of them.

Today I had a breakdown. I was thinking about somethings one of my commenters said and I just lost it all. I love Sakinah so much, and you can't control who your heart falls in love with. You can only hope to rebuild yourself after you have been beaten down so hard you can hardly breathe. You can't stop the uncontrollable crying. You can't erase the happy memories. It is just there and I looked at it all and it just slipped away.

Now women and men are at each others throats and it is so sad everywhere. My blog is sad and it has been sad for a long time. I know that when other peoples blogs turned sad people stopped coming to them. So will be the case with my blog. I will be sad for a while, but Insha Allah soon it will be okay. The papers will be signed and we will hopefully slip into a routine of picking up and dropping off of the children. Everything will balance out and we will go on and live our lives like nothing ever happened. A painful memory and a powerful lesson learned. I can't see getting married again. I want to, I believe in it, but at this moment I'm done. Too much hurt, too much pain and it keeps dragging on.

The entanglements of litigation and shady practices by women and men who have been hurt and hurt again will lead to a complete collapse in our ability as a species to continue and we will come to a place where we don't see ourselves as human anymore. Only as occasional sources of sexual outlet or harmless embrace. Everyone is getting sued, everyone is getting some nonsense charge brought against them that they must defend. As inhuman entities navigating through the morass of life this is the inevitable future as it would seem. It will be complete when it completely engulfs the heartland.

For me though life goes on. One day at a time. Not crying is always a good thing, seldom though is it attained. Only when I can stuff her back into the far recesses of my mind is it only possible. Otherwise she is everywhere and in everything, and I still love her as if she was my air that I breathe.

Everything happens for a reason, perhaps I will get married again and live out my days in peace and happiness. Life will go on there is no doubt. I wanted to go somewhere else with this post. I wanted to talk about the capitalist system and the orchestrated destruction of the family, but ultimately everyone is responsible for their own actions.

What I was going to talk about where the constructs of interpersonal destruction. The open commodification of the female is akin to the open commodification and use of the word nigger. It is a prostitution of principles to say the very least. To get a firm grasp on the situation you have to understand the motives in place. If you look at it from a Capitalistic perspective or you look at it from a Satanic perspective the result is still the same. Capitalistically speaking it is only good business practice to split families. There is a cornucopia of professions and subsequent businesses that will thrive and continue to thrive off of the industry of divorce. Then there is the self preservation aspect of being able to instill into a population what you want it to believe, a possibility only truly successful in a population without strong sense of self. Without these self preservating individuals those in power are free to do whatever they want to with the naves running around spouting utter nonsense without to collective ability to form a bond, because the essence of bondmaking has been destroyed.

I have thought seriously about taking Sakinah back even through the lies only to save my children and that has been a very hard decision for me to make. Sakinah wants to come back, but she doesn't want to tell the truth and I don't feel that I should have to sacrifice the rest of my life to a lie and if I did go back and play nice family that is exactly what I would be doing, lying. Unless Sakinah could tell the truth then there would be no hope, but who knows maybe she is telling the truth. If that were the case I suppose I will find out on the Day of Judgement how I was utterly decieved. I'm done though, I'm hurt and done.

So through lying, cheating, divorce, broken families, A.I.D.S and other diseases, callous treatment, fraudulent claims of violence, actual violence, child-support, alimony, predatory dating, predatory pregnancy and parenting, denial of rights to see children, moving away and gross and overall cheapening of relationships, easy sex, prostitution, rape, anger, rage displacement, homelessness and poverty eventually the undesirables en masse will be reduced to nothing. A Gattica type world will eventually evolve and the less desireables will be completely sterilized and they will vote for it willingly. The nonconformist will be incarcerated and productivity will rise or fade away as we march hopelessly toward a one world govenment and complete mind control.

Eventually this is what the sexual experience will be reduced to.

I haven't done this post well. It is late and I have more things to say coherently than I am able. I am angry, I am hurt and I am saddened by the current state of affairs.

You can't give up, You can't give in and you can't quit.


  1. You miss her taking care of you!

  2. I do miss her, but I can take care of myself just fine thank you.