Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Reflections of the Day

Ok so as it happens before Ramadan I fall off the wagon. I stop fasting Mondays and Thursdays, going to Fajr and Isha etcetera. Thinking that I will be able to just jump up and ramp things up. Well I'm sure that is not the way that things will work. I'm sure I will start out hard and around the third week or so I will peter out and try to make a comeback in the last 10 days. I can't stand that really. I want to be on point for this Ramadan. So I'm going to make some goals.

  1. Finish the Quran in Arabic. It has been a couple of years since I've finished the Quran in Arabic period. I usually read it a couple of times a year in English but not Arabic.
  2. Finish the Quran in English.
  3. Learn Juz Amma. I learned it and then forgot it. So I will start over with one Surah A day. I knew them and forgot them so hopefully they won't be that hard to memorize again.
  4. Establish Fajr and Isha in the Masjid. I was doing well most of the year and then fell off. 
  5. Increase Dhikr. There is a Salafi Imam that comes and warns against Dhikr beads but I know that when I have them I make Dhikr and when I don't I only do it when I remember to.
  6. Pray for my parents and children.
I think that it is good to have a plan. When I read the Quran this morning these are the verses that stood out for me.  Maybe I'll come back and discuss them later.

Hud (The Prophet Hud) - 11:112
فَاسْتَقِمْ كَمَا أُمِرْتَ وَمَن تَابَ مَعَكَ وَلاَ تَطْغَوْاْ إِنَّهُ بِمَا تَعْمَلُونَ بَصِيرٌ (11:112)

  • Therefore stand firm (in the straight Path) as thou art commanded,- thou and those who with thee turn (unto Allah.; and transgress not (from the Path): for He seeth well all that ye do. - 11:112 (Y. Ali)

  • Hud (The Prophet Hud) - 11:113
    وَلاَ تَرْكَنُواْ إِلَى الَّذِينَ ظَلَمُواْ فَتَمَسَّكُمُ النَّارُ وَمَا لَكُم مِّن دُونِ اللّهِ مِنْ أَوْلِيَاء ثُمَّ لاَ تُنصَرُونَ (11:113)

  • And incline not to those who do wrong, or the Fire will seize you; and ye have no protectors other than Allah, nor shall ye be helped. - 11:113 (Y. Ali)

  • Hud (The Prophet Hud) - 11:114
    وَأَقِمِ الصَّلاَةَ طَرَفَيِ النَّهَارِ وَزُلَفًا مِّنَ اللَّيْلِ إِنَّ الْحَسَنَاتِ يُذْهِبْنَ السَّـيِّئَاتِ ذَلِكَ ذِكْرَى لِلذَّاكِرِينَ (11:114)

  • And establish regular prayers at the two ends of the day and at the approaches of the night: For those things, that are good remove those that are evil: Be that the word of remembrance to those who remember (their Lord): - 11:114 (Y. Ali)

  • Hud (The Prophet Hud) - 11:115
    وَاصْبِرْ فَإِنَّ اللّهَ لاَ يُضِيعُ أَجْرَ الْمُحْسِنِينَ (11:115)
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  • And be steadfast in patience; for verily Allah will not suffer the reward of the righteous to perish. - 11:115 (Y. Ali)
  • My poor blog

    This thing has been sooo neglected.

    Starting Back

    It has been a little while since I have blogged. So now I suppose that starting back will be something. Now that everyone has moved on to facebook and groups my blog will be the personal space that it was intended to be. I suppose I will have some readers but chances are they will be new and not know many of the details of my life.

    I am starting here to kind of unload my thoughts and clear my head. Moving about going forward in life and building my future. I suppose mainly for the purposes of quickly organizing my thoughts into a coherent manner. I remember when I was blogging just about everyday I would be able to whip up 3 -4 pages of a term paper in one sitting. Blogging/Journaling makes a difference in your writing. So now we start. This is about all I can come up with today easy. Seems pretty chimpy to me.

    Monday, November 18, 2013

    No procrastination for the Believer

    There are two words in association with action that the Muslim Believer has no use of. The words When and Why. In terms of action the Believer has no use of Why due to the fact that it has already passed and the ink is dry on that situation. The Believer cannot go into the past to address the issue or through critical analysis change the outcome of something that has taken place. The only thing that is left for a Believer to contemplate on is what is to be done with it now. Therefore What is the realm where the Believer operates in. Why is probably a number one door to depression followed by his sister "If Only". These are not phrases for the Believer because there is nothing that can ever be done to change or correct that situation and it leaves your mind spending time and energy over something that you cannot change or alter.

    The next place where Believers get caught up in is When. When is an uncertain guarantee of events that you have no control over. Which is primarily why we say Insha Allah when planning to do something that we actually intend to do in the future. The Believer should Never use Insha Allah for something that they do not intend to do in the first place. This teaches you to lie to your heart and it is a disease that spreads to all of your intentions. "Do not say I shall do such and such tomorrow without saying Insha Allah" 18:23, 18:24. "Oh you who believe why do you say that which you do not do? Greviously odius in the sight of Allah that you say that which you do not do. 61:2, 61:3"

    When is an express evil to the Believer for it allows one to get caught up in all of the possibilities but doesn't provide practical application for its attainment and leads to excuses of inaction. When I lose 10 pounds, When I get my degree, When I grow up, When I make a million dollars all statements point to inaction of WHAT it is that you are doing right now. The Believer knows that the only thing that they have influence over are the WHAT that is taking place right now. I can guarantee that the use of the word When used in concert with an action equates to some level of procrastination. Procrastination is also a breeding ground for the seeds depression. "And they ask when will come the Help of Allah? 2:214"

    The word Why in concert with action is only to be used as an interogative for reflection. The word When is only to be used in reference to inevitable events that are to take place without your control. The Believer should strive to eliminate these words from their vocabulary associated with action. Why is a learning tool for reflection and the implementation of wise practices. Why should not be reflected on as terms of regret and sorrow for there is nothing that can be done about what has passed only about what is happening right now. When the milk spills wipe it up, reflect upon why it spilled and develop safe practices to keep it from spilling again. When a milk spilling situation arises use the wisdom that was learned to perform positive actions to prevent it from spilling and defuse the situation. "If only they had stayed at home and not gone out to fight they would not have died 3:168."

    When you have put your mind to an outcome do not use When as an dangling future event. " When you have decided upon a matter put your trust in Allah 3:159" State when and then state as many Whats that are necessary to accomplish the When event. When I graduate? What does that mean? It means that I need to do this homework to gain mastery of these skills right now. Graduation will come on its own, but focusing on what cap and gown you will have has no effect on the homework that is due tomorrow. When I build a successful business has no effect on the customer relations that you must build right now in order to accomplish that effect.  You have no control over the When nor of tomorrow or the next five minutes. You only have some control over what is happening right now.

    Leaving Why and When out of your vocabulary in concert with actions will enable you to become a more action oriented Believer. As Believers our command is to Believe and Work Righteous deeds. Everything about our Deen is concerned with action and not sitting around wondering why this happened or when this will come. We are a Now based community and we must practice this in all aspects of life not just Deen. Thinking and over thinking are a result from living in the when. When Isa comes, When the Mahdi comes, When all the Muslims come to Fajr then we will be awesome, until then we will sit here and talk about it. What sense does that make? Why did the Muslims break the Khilafah, Why isn't there an Islamic country, Why did the Prophet have to die, Why did I gain fifteen pounds? All questions which lead to inaction and regret and ultimately a defeated mentality. Believers must leave it and do the Work. The Prophet (SAW) always advises action over inaction. "If you are planting a seed and the Day of Judgement comes upon you, continue to plant".

    You will notice in your reading of the Quran that at anytime the use of the words Why (If only), and When are used in concert with action that it is probably also associated with grief due to the inability to control the outcome. Grief is directly associated with depression a consistent state of anxiety and worry for events that are outside of your control. Let us today leave these poisonous words and work towards those things we can change right now and thus multiplying the positives in our lives and the happiness.

    حَدَّثَنَا ‏ ‏بَهْزٌ ‏ ‏حَدَّثَنَا ‏ ‏حَمَّادٌ ‏ ‏حَدَّثَنَا ‏ ‏هِشَامُ بْنُ زَيْدٍ ‏ ‏قَالَ سَمِعْتُ ‏ ‏أَنَسَ بْنَ مَالِكٍ ‏ ‏قَالَ ‏قَالَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ ‏ ‏صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ ‏ ‏إِنْ قَامَتْ السَّاعَةُ وَبِيَدِ أَحَدِكُمْ ‏ ‏ فَسِيلَةٌ ‏ ‏فَإِنْ اسْتَطَاعَ أَنْ لَا يَقُومَ حَتَّى يَغْرِسَهَا فَلْيَفْعَلْ ‏

    Bahz narrated to us from Hammad (ibn Salamah) who narrated to him from Hishaam ibn Zayd who said that he heard Anas ibn Maalik (radhiya Allahu ‘Anhu) saying Rasulullah (sallallahu ‘alayhi wa sallam) said, “If the hour (as-saa’ah, i.e. the day of judgment) is established upon you and in your hand is a plant, if you are able, do not stand until you have planted it into the ground.”

    [Reported by Imam Ahmad in his Musnad via a Sahīh chain]

    Wednesday, September 18, 2013

    Wanting to write again

    I have been wanting to write again. I have been posting some stuff on Facebook but I have not really been posting stuff to my blog. The only people that comes to my blog anymore are bots and probably some government agents. Who knows. After what Edward Snowden laid down they probably don't have to search anymore as soon as it is uploaded to Google a copy is sent strait away to the NSA servers. Edward's greatest fear in his whole situation was that his plight would be recieved with absolute apathy.

    In recent news I have been reading Malcolm X: A life of reinvention by Manning Marable and it offers some insight into the man known and loved as El Hajj Malik Shabazz. There are points with it that I'm completely bleh about. Such as the controversy over him being homosexual or not. From the rest of his life it is apparent that this is not the case, but it does build upon my hypothesis about homosexuality. I believe that there are about 1% of the population that are genuinely afflicted with homosexual tendencies. The rest of the people that fall into the den of homosexuality are creatures of circumstance.

    Homosexuality is an expression of lust for one, and complete selfishness in other aspects of life. Coming from a standpoint of lust there is the case of the person with an insatiable sexual appetite and they are really not concerned with where they fulfill their desires from. Such as the odd character in the Kinsley movie who bragged about him being able to ejaculate in under 10 seconds or whatever. He is not concerned with whether he pleases himself with his hand, her mouth, his butt or having fido lick his balls clean of peanut butter. He just wants to get off and in the homosexual world of extremely easy sex he has only to say a word and it it is on. Then you have the emotional homosexual, who is trying to rebuild a lost relationship from childhood which was either strained or malnourished to the point that they hold on to paternalesque relationships in an unhealthy way. If exhibited in youth they could have been bullied into a self image that fulfilled itself at some other stage of life. Then there is the power homosexual who seeks to rule over others and from a masculine standpoint there is no greater conquest than pulling the strings of fortune to manipulate the choices of those so financially strapped that they degrade themselves into fulfilling the role as a submissive even if or especially if it is not their nature. There is no glory in the submission of one who has already submitted himself to the effeminate, however to coerce a fully straight man into a homosexual situation and demasculating him would be an ultimate triumph. Which is why in movies you have fully strong men bouncing around in drag. A studio producers power to demasculinize Wesley Snipes into a female role is an expression of power. To sodomize one of the mightiest football college teams in the nation is power. For decades even, and probably has nothing to do with "traditional" homosexuality. Take for instance a young man taunted by his class mates, called a faggot and bullied. Now he is a CEO of a major corporation and calls the shots, he would then be in a position to turn the tables. That's a situation of power and probably has little to do with homosexuality.

    Their world is really riddled with psychosis and lonliness and more psychosis. Speaking in observance of the ones that I have had the opportunity to view very close up. Granted I don't know a lot of homosexuals and really don't care to, but of the observations that I have made and the articles that I have read this is their case. With the women there are more part timers than there are die hard lesbians. After the point is proven then what? From what I've seen there are a ton of Butches that are looking for something and get dumped and move on. Loneliness upon loneliness, I suppose it is a sickness within itself.

    Back to Malcolm X though I can see that he struggled in his life. In his married life he knew no example of what a family should be like. What is a husband? What makes a man a man. How can you obtain intimacy with someone whom you fundamentally don't trust? His is the same situation in the struggle of being a man on a mission and being with a woman. He was growing into a better husband and would have ultimately made it, however his life was cut short. As he entered into orthodox Islam he was changing, but his life was cut too soon.

    What has really inspired me about his life up to now was the transformation and reflecting on my own life. Here was a man with a ton of dirt balanced on his shoulders. How he wasn't even a respectable citizen of society, but his dedication to Allah changed and reformed him into a well disciplined man of God. Looking at myself I ask can I make such a metamorphasis? Looking at all of this time that I have been Muslim and have been silent of the things that I have learned. Shaytan comes to me daily and tells me that I have no right to speak. I don't know enough because I have squandered my time and now it is too late to speak. No one will believe you. No one will respect you and you aren't of sufficient quality to lead anyone except yourself. Even with all of this there is  call in me. A call to stand up and state that which is right. That which is true. If Malcolm can do it from such depths then why can't I do it from right here where I am. Maybe I won't become a scholar and maybe that is not my job, maybe my job is to find the next Malcolm and inspire that one to speak. However if none speaks then I must do so.

    The other thing that stood out for me about Manning's version of Malcolm's life was all of the movements that he listed. All of them without any reservation were all built upon people standing up and speaking. Whether the movements where right or wrong, whether they had the correct ideology or not, they all gained support and enroads to those who were willing to stand up and make a change. In reading the Seerah of the Prophet it is evident that he was inviting to the Deen on a daily basis. Daily, not once a month on Dawah Day or once a quarter or once a year. He interacted on a daily basis. Daily.

    Ok I'm done. I have my little Bluetooth keyboard but I used the wrong program to type this in. The Blogger App doesn't have an auto save function so I just lost two paragraphs. Next time I'll write it up in Kingsoft and then cut and paste.