Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Even after all of this my heart still does not care...

You'll never know how much I really feel for you, and that........ I love you. Maybe in our next life baby. When she stares at your mouth [ Kiss her ] When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb ass cuz she thinks shes stronger than you [ Grab her and dont let go ] When she starts cursing at you tryin to act all tuff [ Kiss her and tell her you love her ] When she's quiet [ Ask her whats wrong ] When she ignores you [ Give her your attention ] When she pulls away [ Pull her back ] When you see her at her worst [ Tell her she's beautiful ] WHen you see her start crying [Just hold her and dont say a word ] When you see her walking [ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ] When she's scared [ Protect her ] When she steals your favorite hat [ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night ] When she teases you [ Tease her back and make her laugh ] When she doesn't answer for a long time [ reassure her that everything is okay ] When she looks at you with doubt [ Back yourself up ] When she says that she likes you [she really does more than you can understand] When she grabs at your hands [ Hold her's and play with her fingers ] When she bumps into you; [ bump into her back and make her laugh ] When she tells you a secret [ keep it safe and untold ] When she looks at you in your eyes [ dont look away until she does ] When she says it's over [ she still wants you to be hers ] When she reposts this bulletin [ she wants you to read it ] - Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything - When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go - When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you - Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her -Treat her like she's all that matters to you. - Stay up all night with her when she's sick. - Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid - Give her the world. - Let her wear your clothes -When she's bored and sad, hang out with her - Let her know she's important. - Don't talk about other girls around her - Kiss her in the pouring rain - When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is; "Whose ass am I kicking baby?" If you do post this in the next four minutes the one you love will : Call you..... Kiss you..... Love you....... Text you..........

When she's hurt you immeasurably try to understand, When her life is spiraling out of control try to hold her hand, When she lies to hide her shame encourage her to tell the truth so she can heal, When she tries to stuff her feelings draw them out of her, When she rubs her eyebrows raw tell her that everything is going to be okay, When she's crying uncontrollably tell her everything is going to be alright, When she forces herself to stay awake to talk to you carry her into bed and put her down and then cuddle with her until morning, when she's gone and fucked the marriage up beyond all get out tell her that you still love her. Tell her that the offer still stands until she's old and gray.

Speaking from the heart, because it doesn't give a fuck.


  1. =) this is sweet of you to repost this.

    Oh why can't you two make this work?? You love each other. I don't even know you two and I feel such a tragic loss in me over this. Really!!! Its like someone has died and your just praying and hoping that the person will wake up or it will all be a bad dream and you will wake up in a matter of time.

    Please trust in Allah. Let the marriage be revived and don't let it die...

    I feel like crying and I am not even the one who should be crying.

    My my my... bro, can't you all just put this behind you, let go of your pride and make this work??

  2. It is not pride sister that is driving this it is honesty. I can handle anything with honesty, but lies drive me mad and there are too many lies between us. And then there are her coping mechanisms that really spoil everything, but she won't face dead on that her coping mechanisms are a problem. So it is kind of like having a hole in a boat that you fix only to have the person put the hole right back into the boat. Until that person realizes that it is their actions that are sinking the ship then you really can't make any forward progress. She stuffs her feelings and forces herself into denial and PRETENDS that everything is fine. So it would be comparable to the columbine shootings and then wondering why everyone is in a tissy.

    I can't say that I am entirely innocent either knowing her personality or actually finding out more about her personality while going through all of this, because I have been gravely oblivious to her coping mechanisms up until recently. I didn't put all of the pieces together and I have been struggling to understand and I have gained a greater understanding of her situation. She didn't do the things she did out of spite necessarily, but out of trained response. Understanding that makes it easy for me not to get angry with her.

    What I would like to do is to bring everyone attached to the situation and put them all in one room and then bring her in and do an intervention. Because at this point that is really what she needs. None of you out there really know what is going on except those who actually know her. Every one just sees one side of the story, so everyone just makes assumptions and that is fine.

    It is not as simple as it seems. I do love her and I do care for her, but there is a lot of work that has to be done before we can realistically come to the reconciliation table. If people don't believe there is a problem then you can actually never truly make any progress.