Saturday, September 01, 2007

Responsibility of Deen

In the process of our Deen rising and falling in its natural state of winding its way through our lives there are times when you are at the bottom of a trough on the upswing when you are faced with the knowledge and the responsibility of your current state of Deen. It is a state of clarity where you realize everything that is at stake. You realize everything that you are responsible for and you annotate all of your shortcomings. You know with full knowledge everything that you are doing wrong and what you need to do to improve. You walk and you know for just that little moment it is only you and Allah. Nothing else matters. It is akin to a father and daughter learning to ride a bike for the first time. Daddy is right there with her every step of the way, holding her assuring her and now it is time for him to let go. That is the feeling when you are on the upswing in your Deen. Knowing that you have the assurances of Allah and now it is time for you to walk on your own. Yes you are never alone, but this is the time of the tests.

I hung out with my friend Kanaan all day yesterday. I hope his wife forgives me. May Allah grant him a beautiful marriage and gives him everything he needs in this life. Amen. He is the type of brother that makes you want to be a better Muslim. Masha Allah. So last night we went and saw Yusef Estes and he spoke about his Journey to Islam and it was a beautiful story. It is amazing what purity of faith can bring. One Egyptian man was responsible for bringing the message of Islam to a Priest, His wife, Himself and his father Alhamdulillah. Subhanallah. When you are down on your Deen you don't get rewards like that. Allahu Alim. He is a great speaker may Allah bless him and his family and bring them peace.

When a father is weak in Deen the entire family is affected, and it reminds me of an Ayat in the Quran that asks: 2:266 Would any of you like to have a garden of date-palms and vines, through which running waters flow, and have all manner of fruit therein - and then be overtaken by old age, with only weak children to [look after] him-and then [see] it smitten by a fiery whirlwind and utterly scorched? In this way God makes clear His messages unto you, so that you might take thought. Actually it doesn't matter if it is a father or the mother if this condition exists inevitably you will see all that Allah has bestowed upon you wilt and be destroyed before your eyes. This is why staying on top of your Deen is so important.

Living out here has been a blessing from the start Alhamdulillah. It is helping me focus on those things that are essential in life. When I return home I will embark on an entirely new aspect of life and I am preparing for it. I feel as though I am coming out of the bottom of my trough and now I have a Shaytan next to me telling me that I am going to high and I could get hurt. You have to shave that off of yourself and let yourself fly. Your nafs, Shayateen your family may all be calling you back down, but you have to go with Allah and keep going.

I realized that with a new installment to my home unit and my wife working to pay off all of our bills Insha Allah, pray for us on this one. That Allah will have answered all of my biggest prayers and when that happens I am responsible for the debt that I placed on my neck. You know one of those prayers that you don't want to do. Oh Allah if you make me rich then I will do this? Yeah one of those. He will have answered them all. So I must hold to the truth and implement those things that I said that I would. I am wealthy in that I don't want anything and all of my needs and the needs of my family are met. I have no desire for anything in this world that burns. I love my wife and family so there can be no other thing that I really need in this life. Now all of my responsibilities turn to my Deen as I have no excuses left. That is a state of responsibility that I have ran from in the past. Now there is no more road, it is time to turn around and walk the long way back and accept each test as it is. Pray for me as I begin on this journey, and may Allah increase your faith and help you on your own road.

As Salaamu A'laikum


  1. Wonderful post!! I love the quran quote!!

    I think when you make a supplication to Allah and are making a supposed contract, that in Egypt they call it a "Naddara".

    Where you ask Allah for something and when it's granted, you have to own up. Oftentimes here, people give a subscribed amount of sadaqa or slaughter a lamb. And it's not the worst sort of dua.....

    I pray that Allah grants u success and happiness, and a clear path back to your home when the time comes....

    How long are you going to be in Bahrain??

  2. That's classified LOL probably until next summer sometime. I'm loving it here. Very nice. I hope all is well with you Safa I haven't been back to your blog for a couple of days. I hope to get over there sometime soon.