Friday, February 29, 2008

I didn't know my heart could do such things

I must truly say that this thing is incredible. It has been hit with a mack truck several times and it is still beating. I love my wife intensely. Only fools love like this. My heart has taken completely over and my love is spilling out all over as if it were some endless fountain that satiates all drinkers.

I didn't know it could feel such pain and heal so quickly over and over again. I didn't know that I could find such comfort in my Deen during this time of complete chaos amidst this all I feel stillness and security. When my fears well up and over take me my heart is the one who brings ease. Alhamdulillah for this ease and Sakinah.

I didn't know my heart could do such things. Love without bounds. To endure the wrenching pain of reality and stand so firm and stoic. I never knew Love could be so raw and so true.

I love my wife with all of me, she is all that I could ever love. She casts her shadow deep into my soul and lays anchor in it. We are connected and we are one although the bombs burst all around us we still love and we still care. We may arise wounded or we may not arise at all, but this love will not end or fade not a moment for it is true and in truth eternal. I have never known love until this test. I have faced my darkest fears and I still choose love. I am crazy about that little girl maybe that is a blessing from Allah. Her little hands and sultry eyes her voice so soft and sweet. I love that girl that Allah have given me with all that I am. With all that I am. With all that I am.


  1. From the Roots Sacrifice
    [Chorus: Black Thought & Nelly Furtado]
    I tell you one lesson I learned
    If you want to be something in life
    You ain't gonna get it unless
    You give a little bit of sacrifice
    Ooohh, sometimes before you smile you got to cry
    You need a heart that's filled with music
    If you use it you can fly
    If you want to be high

  2. Salaam,

    What wonderful words. I have never seen or heard a man express such devotion to his wife....only hear of complaints and negative me of my loneliness.......Things will get better ....

    two words
    chin up....

  3. You have no idea how madly, crazy in love I am with that little girl. I'm hopeless and the thought of being without her is killing me. I am praying that everything will be ok. I pray Insha Allah the beauty will be returned to us.

    Verily Allah does not change the condition of a people until they change themselves.

    So true, so true.