Goodbye All
This is my last post. This is the end of this chapter of my life.
Why...
Why...
DIDO LYRICS "White Flag" I know you think that I shouldn't still love you, Or tell you that. But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it where's the sense in that? I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder Or return to where we were I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again And I caused nothing but trouble I understand if you can't talk to me again And if you live by the rules of "it's over" then I'm sure that that makes sense I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be And when we meet Which I'm sure we will All that was there Will be there still I'll let it pass And hold my tongue And you will think That I've moved on.... I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be |
My brother,
ReplyDeleteIt hasn't been long with us.....but I do enjoy and do wonder if you ok and of things are ok...........I don't want to go to the extreme of fratinizing........but I was wondering could I ..instant message you? Are things ok? You past few posts have seem troubled???..hmmmm
No things aren't ok. Things are very painful. It will be ok though. You can email me if you wish.
ReplyDeleteAnyone can...
Inna Allaha Ma'a Sabireen. Indeed Allah is with those who are patient.
ReplyDeletePatience isn't the bearing of pain over time. Patience is when the news first comes to you.
Patience is one of God's greatest gifts that can help you work through all your problems with God's other greatest gifts - your loved ones.
ReplyDeleteTake care and I will pray that Allah gives you all the patience you need.
Salaam Alaikum,
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Salaam,
ReplyDeleteBe expecting it....2marrow.......
You know sister I am going to have to hold off on that. I don't need any more tests right now. I am alone and don't have anyone to talk to, but I don't know. I am fighting with everything I have for my marriage and Insha Allah He will bless us as He did when we first got married. Right now we are holding on with both hands and holding each other. I never thought that my heart was capable of such things.
ReplyDeleteMy brother,
ReplyDeleteForgive me....I had no idea it was a marital issue ..I thought it was a regular dealings with life issue......I will keep you your wife and your kids in my du'a.....everything will be the way Allah(swt) has willed it be.
Insha'Allah things will get better. Do not I repeat DO NOT give up. If you love her FIGHT for her that is what she needs you to do. Do not be passive, Tell her that you love her and will NOT give her up without a fight. Do not let her walk out of that door...DON'T. Fight for her with all of your might....I am serious...bakarain(Naima says it like that) can not be the end. Kick the egg shells out of the way and tell her what she means to you. She knows you love her but she needs more than those 3 words.........its hard when you are so far away but you have to do it...at least try....
ReplyDeleteOh and PS stop telling women to email you or IM you...not helping...confide in Allah not other women....OK?
ReplyDeleteWord...I actually put that out there when I was completely losing my mind and it would have been better than any other alternative. I have found out why I am in this situation in the first place and I will be blogging about that. Must get some sleep now.
ReplyDeleteUmmi You just don't know how crazy I am about that little girl. She is my everything and I love her with all of me right down to the essence of my nafs. Without her the sun refuses to shine.
ReplyDeleteThe bad thing is Allah doesn't take excuses from believers so I can't wallow in self-pity and doubt I have to keep my eyes forward and cherish each moment with her as a special gift and just let my love shine over her like the sun on a peaceful meadow and let her drink the rays of all that I have.
Sorrow can sometimes be enjoyable in a sick sort of way and I suppose that is one of the reasons Allah doesn't take such nonsense from believers. He really has removed every excuse that a believer can use to not be an exceptional individual.
Peace